So once Jude got his tummy coated in antibiotics he was back to his old tricks. He has been such a love bug this week. Please enjoy photos taken of him experiencing his first Izze drink tonight.
Back to the health issue: the only thing is, Jeff and I have been sick as dogs since last weekend. I have a doctor's appointment for this week, and I thought what I have is probably viral anyway, but since the gunk in my chest is actually making it hard to breathe and Jeff came home from the doc's today with antibiotics, I have resigned myself to seeing a professional tomorrow. I have been reading up on antibiotics during pregnancy and apparently I will most likely have some options.
However, it is because of this illness that I can't sleep, and am here blogging away at 2:51 in the morning.
Christmas is over, and the only thing that has gotten me through that fact is nesting for this baby boy. I am so excited to get him here safe and sound, see his little face, pick a name, etc. I can't remember what life was like before pregnancy. I regret taking for granted every time I lifted Jude before I had a bulge in my mid-section. Last time, 2 months after Jude was born I couldn't remember what it was like to be pregnant. I told my friend and her mother-in-law this one Sabbath while we waited for Sunday School to start, and mother-in-law said, "That's how Heavenly Father gets us to have more babies." It's got to be true!
However, I would just like to say that an extraordinary thing has happened. I'm not wishing away these last 4 weeks of pregnancy. YES EVEN! I am looking at my To-Do list, and I need these remaining weeks. During our Christmas holiday I went to Kneaders/Heaven with some cousins one night, and Kate asked me, "Isn't your heart just breaking for Jude? Your one on one is coming to an end!" I instantly said, "No! I'm giving him a buddy -- that's like the best gift I could give him!" It's true, and it feels like time to have our family expand. I don't know how else to say it.
But then, a few days ago I looked at Jude as we were bopping around and I realized this has been all he's known of life, and this has been such a great ride and bond we've had, just we two. Bringing home a brother for him will change that forever. I don't know how much and how hard it'll be on him, but it won't be the same, and it'll take strategizing and extra effort to make one-on-one happen. So I don't know if my heart is quite breaking for the end of this era, but I want to make sure I soaked up each moment I could while it was there.
Also, our routine is about to be flipped upside down a little bit. For a long time it's been:
Jude wakes up around 7. One of us gets him and usually brings him back into bed with us for anywhere from 4 seconds to 2 minutes. He's usually very anxious to get breakfast going. I take him downstairs while Jeff starts getting ready for work. Jude eats, and then shares some of Jeff's smoothie with him (no matter what Jude's breakfast has been) before family prayer and waving goodbye to Dad from the doorway as he leaves for the office.
Jude and I go to the gym, which is perfect for both of us. He runs around getting out some of his limitless wiggles, plays with other kids, and toys that I didn't have to buy for about 50 minutes. I get to watch the news or Kelly and Michael (or whatever Regis' replacement is named) and exercise. Since we haven't had cable in a couple of years, TV watching at the gym has revealed something to me: a huge chunk of the ads shown during the 9-10:00 morning hour are targeting seniors. Mesothelioma law suit commercials, retirement commercials, investing in gold or silver late in the game commercials, etc.
After the gym we go home and get ready, and while I shower Jude takes it upon himself to terrorize our poor bedroom and bathroom. He pulls a lot of shoes out, and brings them to me to put on. He turns on and off the bath water. He tries to break into the baby proofed cupboards and drawers. He tries to reach for the toothpaste on the counter and sometimes gets it, which means I have to make a wet, premature exit and get it back from him before he squirts a glob into his mouth or onto his hands. This whole thing drives me crazy. I don't know what else to do with him though; we don't have a TV in our bedroom to distract, and that distraction wouldn't last at this age anyway. I don't want to put him in his crib because that would be added motivation for him to learn to climb out, and/or I don't want his crib to feel like a punishment. One thing that's really sweet, when I'm all done showering he brings me towel after towel off the hooks with this proud look on his face. Anyway, an alternative showering MO is something I'm trying to find.
Then the rest of the morning and early afternoon are filled with errands, parks (often more than one a day), books, a play date a few times a week, lunch, and then it's nap time.
Nap time is almost always 90 minutes on the button. As tired as I've been, I almost never nap because I need Merzy Time.
The afternoon is the witching hour and he's usually cranky. Why? I don't know. It seems to be a common issue -- I just can't believe no one ever told me about it before I had Jude. It's a bust, but we try to cure the funk with more park time and/or a show, and somewhere in there I try to make dinner. Very little of this happens before he's on my hip or crying and feeling hurt when I put him down because I must have both hands for whatever step of cooking I'm taking. He loves to watch me cook and be involved in any way he can, which can be the cutest thing on earth or dangerous.
If Jeff makes it home before 7, they rough house and play, and then it's bedtime. He's very big on this part being fulfilled in its entirety. We brush teeth (the only part he's not always in love with), read The Going to Bed Book, some of The Book of Mormon (kids' version), family prayer, and then he gets some lullabyes all snuggled up. He must be clutching me (or Jeff) and his monkey, covered in a blanket. When I come to the last lines of a song he'll tighten his grip on me as if to say, "I'm not done here, so let's get another melody going fast." Then we trade kisses and I put him in his crib.
I crash on the couch. Jeff will bring up no fewer than 5 times how great Jude is.
And that is the 2012-early 2013 Mom & Jude Routine.
Who knows what it'll be in 5 weeks ;).